I’ve spent the last few months trying to break through the barrier. I’ve been slamming my head against a wall waiting for someone else to catch on and come to the party. I coordinate a few different programs… One of which I feel particularly passionate about… It’s mine, and I’ve worked my arse off to get it working, to get it to a place I’m happy with… and today, I finally broke through the pain barrier. After 3 months worth of blood, sweat and a few tears I actually managed to achieve something.
This program is not one of my “high profile” programs. It doesn’t get notoriety in the papers, I don’t have notable people wanting to get in on the action - giving me money to keep it going, or providing media photo ops *gag*… It’s somethings small, low-key but has a huge impact on some people… I’m proud of it, and I care about it, and people involved in it are important to me.
When people ask me what I do, their eyes tend to glaze over and they seem to think I’ve got shit for brains. Apparently making money and contributing to extending someone elses wealth is all that matters… Sometimes Mostly, the pay is disheartening, but life has to amount to more than your pay packet. I feel sorry for all the passionless fucks who go to work every day just for money.. there has to be a bit more to life than that… its the time you spend away from those you care about. I spend more waking hours with my mates at work than I do with my fiance… I have to enjoy what I do to make that sort of commitment… Or at least know that it will lead taking me somewhere I want to be
As I said to someone this evening. I’d sooner be ethically poor than an unethically wealthy.
